3.05.2008

No Matter What

It’s been a wild couple of weeks since I’ve written. I got a job and my bride was diagnosed with cancer. You read that right the big C word. She came home to tell me and everything else that I thought was important seemed to melt away and not matter. I wrote once and said my bride was my taste of heaven here on earth. I was faced with that she may not be here for much longer. So many thoughts go through your head in so short a time. And the whole gamut of emotions follows those thoughts. So we prepared, and she had the surgery. From the time we found out to surgery was 7 days. When the doctor came to see me after the surgery, she said we couldn’t find any visible cancer.

A few days before the surgery my bride and I went to our church and the staff prayed for her. While they we praying and after they were done, a couple of people said to us “I believe that the doctors will find after the surgery she has been healed. I realized that I had been preparing myself in case she was terminal and died. And that I really wasn’t expecting God to heal her. I have felt that I have an extreme amount of faith, and that God has answered many of our prayers.It wasn’t true in this case. I doubted God, I was leaning on my own understanding and forgetting that God can do all things and he does. I’ve been raised that God is our healer, in fact I’ve had God heal me many times. I quickly altered my thought process and started to ask God to heal my bride as well and he did. Thank you God.

I don’t deserve 1 thing that God has done for me in spite of myself and my actions God has shown me grace and mercy. No matter what you or I have done God loves us and is just waiting for us to ask for his help. I can speak from personal experience that he will help. No matter what you’ve done.

Ask God